Poetry by Melodie Yvonne

Words from a gonzoesque life in an oh so gonzoless world

  • The Ceiling

    The Ceiling

    Originally published online Feb 11, 2023 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here

    The Ceiling by Melodie Yvonne

    You break my fucking heart and then chastise for having feelings
    You slice my soul wide open then you yelled at me for bleeding
    But still somehow I miss you and my body aches for leaving
    And all I can do is cry now and just stare up at the ceiling

    My knees are breaking from all of the time that I spent kneeling
    The part of me I gave I didn’t know that you were stealing
    But every single tear I’ve cried would all be worth repeating
    If I thought for just one second it’d help you with your healing

    But every single second was a second you were leading
    Collecting all of me wasn’t enough, you got so greedy
    You got me all addicted, but then turned and called me needy
    Screamed at me you needed air and then you guilted me for breathing

    You told me you need space, but won’t give me the space I’m needing
    I thought I was in love with you, but love is so deceiving
    I tried to douse our dumpster fire, but you just gasoline it
    So all I can do is cry now and just stare up at the ceiling

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  • Another Round

    Another Round

    Originally published online Jan 22, 2023 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here
    This piece can also be found in the collection psalms 2000:17-24 — available on Amazon here

    Another Round by Melodie Yvonne

    Here on my own I sit again
    Another round of quit at end
    And I can’t keep myself from going under

    I need help, something divine
    Hope falls with tears and fades with time
    And I just don’t think I can take another

    Please lift me up before I fall
    Leave me ’fore I rebuild walls
    Let me go, but promise not to leave me

    Stop this neverending ache
    Love so hard I never break
    And maybe make it not so hard to be me

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  • One Fine Day

    One Fine Day

    Originally published online May 7, 2023 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here
    This piece can also be found in the print collection Seed Guzzler: And Other Succubi — available here

    From my newest collection Methlehem – available for preorder HERE

    One Fine Day by Melodie Yvonne

    You call it honesty I call it gaslighting
    You speak the truth, but you use it misleadingly
    Where is the line that you balance so freeingly?
    One fucking push would have you on your fucking knees

    All that I gave you it wasn’t enough and I’m
    sick of your bullshit just like I am sick of mine
    I gave it all to you and you stole all my time
    Push me away and then pull back and draw a line

    I’m fucking dizzy from all your mixed signals and
    I just can’t stand bein’ on this damn ride again
    I didn’t sign up to be your dumb fucking friend
    but I feel stupid again and again and again

    One fucking day maybe you’ll finally bleed like me
    You’ll be in pain and I’ll be here in ecstasy
    One fucking day you will see what you’ve done to me
    but it’s too late now to mend all this broken me

    One fucking day maybe I can forget ‘bout you
    Hope for your sake you can finally forget me too
    One fucking day I hope we’re fucking finally through
    if I can ever say fuck it to loving you

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  • Huffing Fumes

    Huffing Fumes

    Originally published online Nov 25, 2022 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here

    From my newest collection Methlehem – available for preorder HERE

    Huffing Fumes by Melodie Yvonne

    My pumpin’ heart’s so loud here in this quiet, lonely house
    The passing cars light up the walls and splash it all around
    The crickets getting louder still don’t cover up my sin
    And I can’t believe I banged my head against this wall again

    The bottle’s in the other room alive and chillin’ out
    My girl in Alabama got Xanax on tap like stout
    And all I gotta do is get some drive to drive some time
    Then I’m in over my head again like sis at 5 & Dime

    I’m numb as fuck, but still somehow still feelin’ all the pain
    I wouldn’t take it back, though, I’d still feel it all again
    ‘Cause with this crushing sadness comes my very favorite sin
    And I’d rip out my own fucking heart to go back there again

    I try to push, but everything just pushes back at me
    I try to float away, but still somehow just fallin’ free
    Please just let me stay I know it’s over when I leave
    You choke me out, but you’re the only air I need to breathe

    My pumpin’ heart’s so loud here in this quiet, lonely house
    The passing cars light up the walls and splash it all around
    The crickets gettin’ louder still don’t cover up my sin
    But I’d rip out my own fucking heart to be with you again

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  • This Day and Next

    This Day and Next

    Originally published online May 14, 2022 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here

    This Day and Next by Melodie Yvonne

    Time drags on forever in this lonely time and next
    No matter how I’m trying I still feel like I’m a mess
    And I just keep on thinkin’ ‘bout the seconds I got left
    Wishin’ I could give up hopin’ so it’d hurt a lil less

    Wishin’ I could give up hopin’ so it’d hurt a lil less
    Wishin’ I could give up thinkin’ ‘bout you all this day and next
    Wishin’ I could just be near you, but my every answer’s yes
    And I just don’t wanna know you so it’d hurt a little less

    I just don’t wanna know you so it’d hurt a little less
    I wish that I could take back all these feelings I got left
    Time drags on forever in this lonely time and next
    And no matter how I’m trying I still feel like I’m a mess

    I know I don’t deserve you ‘cause I’m just a piece of shit
    And everywhere I go but you I’m really fakin’ it
    But every time I see you my heart falls outside my chest
    Wishin’ I could give up hopin’ so it’d hurt a little less

    Wishin’ I could give up hopin’ so it’d hurt a lil less
    Wishin’ I could give up thinkin’ ‘bout you all this day and next
    Wishin’ I could just be near you, but my every answer’s yes
    And I just don’t wanna know you so it hurts a little less

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  • Urban Ostrich

    Urban Ostrich

    Originally published online Feb 26, 2024 & will be in the upcoming collection Photographic Memories: Nein — available here soon

    Urban Ostrich by Melodie Yvonne

    I love you so much I can’t fucking sleep
    Eyes open or shut you’re all I can see
    My fan is so old it won’t block out the sound
    Of my obsessive thoughts flying around

    You’re all that I think about all of the time
    I’d be fucking broke if there was a fine
    I know all my thoughts are way out of line
    But I’d fight to the death if you were the prize

    ‘Cause it’s just not worth living if you’re not around
    You make me feel lights, put the colors in sounds
    Your eyes twinnin’ mine so I see you around
    but it’s breakin’ me down that you don’t make a sound

    I thought I was doin’ it right by the book
    I never did touch you, just snuck a few looks
    But I’m just a liar and I fell from grace
    The second that my back porch light hit your face

    I’d say it all sooner if time would rewind
    I thought it was your fault, but know it’s all mine
    I told you I’d move on and let it all go
    But you’re all that I ever wanted to know

    It’s just not worth living when you’re not around
    You make me feel lights, put the colors in sounds
    Your eyes twinnin’ mine so I see you around
    but it’s breakin’ me down that you don’t make a sound

    Yeah it’s breakin’ me down that you dont make a sound

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  • Untitled Lust

    Untitled Lust

    Originally published online May 3, 2022 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here
    This piece can also be found in the Poetry Collaboration Sin & Skin — available on Amazon here

    Untitled Lust by Melodie Yvonne

    I can’t wait forever, but I’ll wait tonight
    ‘Cause somethin’ is grabbin’ a hold of me right
    I’m shiverin’ warm, pulse quickening pace
    Thoughts I shouldn’t have, but don’t wanna erase

    I’m feelin’ you & you’re feelin’ me, so why
    do we gotta wallow in this misery
    I’m just here fightin’ it best that I can
    You’re my favorite addiction, you’re my kind of man

    I just can’t help it, lust’s my favorite sin
    If you crack that door open I’ll let you cum in
    You’re all that I think about writhin’ around
    My desire overpowering, screamin’ out loud

    I just wanna quit you, but can’t get enough
    I never thought stayin’ away’d be so tough
    You’re my favorite addiction, you’re all that I am
    And I can’t fucking wait to be near you again

    I’m feelin’ you & you’re feelin’ me, so why
    do we gotta wallow in this misery
    I’m just here fightin’ it best that I can
    You’re my favorite addiction, you’re my kind of man

    You are my favorite addiction again and again

    I can’t wait forever, but I’ll wait tonight
    ‘Cause the way that you do it, you do it so right
    I’m shivering warm, pulse quickening pace
    Thoughts I shouldn’t have that I just can’t erase

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  • Untitled Coveting

    Untitled Coveting

    Originally published online May 3, 2022 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Eight Ways to Nein — available here

    Untitled Coveting by Melodie Yvonne

    His smile, it melts the coldest heart
    And his touch even gives mine a start
    He makes me somehow feel so safe
    And I can’t stop thinking of his face

    And I need him… Oh please God I wanna see him

    My mind shuts off when he’s around
    His calm allays my shaky ground
    Everything he says is right
    And I wish this was an endless night

    Just one more chance to feel the touch
    Of everything I want so much
    He’s everything I wanna need
    222 away from me

    And I need him… Everything that I see’s him

    His smile, it melts the coldest heart
    And his touch even gives mine a start
    He makes me somehow feel so safe
    And I can’t stop thinking of his face

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  • Southport Rd 13

    Southport Rd 13

    Originally published online Aug 10, 2021 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even — available here

    Southport Rd 13 by Melodie Yvonne

    Sometimes I just wanna sit with my train wreck by the light of my dumpster fire
    Sometimes even though I’m already high I just wannna get higher and higher
    Sometimes when I’ve just got too much to do I sit down and do nothing at all
    And I still just don’t know why the fuck I still wish that you’re dumb fucking ass would just call

    Sometimes I just wanna go back to that trailer on the dark side of CSL
    Dig me a hole way down deep in that party bowl ‘til I forget that I fell
    But I just can’t give in ‘cause it never’d end and I’m aready goin’ to hell
    Fallin’ over and over right through the floor of my dirty back barn room well

    Were you thinkin’ ‘bout me or just ‘bout yourself, would it’d changed anything if I’d tried
    Do you even regret for a second you left without ever saying goodbye
    Do you think ‘bout me or wonder if I’m sittin’ here thinkin’ ‘bout you
    ‘Cause, baby, I still miss you so fucking much and this missin’ you’s givin’ me blues

    Should I wait here for you ‘til the ends of the earth or just go right ahead & jump off
    Should I wallow in silence down deep in the ditches or scream out your name from the top
    Maybe you love me, but probably not and there’s just too much room left for doubt
    I should give all my hope to a fifth of Patron & just let it all work itself out

    Are you thinkin’ ‘bout me or just ‘bout yourself, ‘cause I’m here about to get fucked
    Do you even regret for a second you left without even tryin’ to get sucked
    Do you think ‘bout me or wonder if I’m sittin’ here thinkin’ ‘bout you
    ‘Cause baby I still miss you so fucking much and this missin’ you still gives me blues

    When will I be done I just wanna have fun and burn everything I have left
    I guess I like torture ‘cause I don’t know why I just can’t fucking let me forget
    The sun and the moon just can’t love each other ’cause then I guess everything’d end
    But I’d rather it be over right fucking now than just have to sit here and pretend

    Sometimes I just wanna sit with my train wreck by the light of my dumpster fire
    Sometimes even though I’m already high I just wannna get higher and higher
    Sometimes when I’ve just got too much to do I sit down and do nothing at all
    And I still just don’t know why the fuck I still wish that you’re dumb fucking ass would just call

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  • ✨ Signed Methlehem Preorders Are Live — Step Into the Chaos ✨

    ✨ Signed Methlehem Preorders Are Live — Step Into the Chaos ✨

    It’s finally here. Signed preorders for Methlehem are live, and this time, everything’s running smoothly — no glitches, no stress 😅. Every copy will be personally signed before it ships, so you’ll get a piece of the story straight from me.

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