Poetry by Melodie Yvonne

Words from a gonzoesque life in an oh so gonzoless world

  • Lovesick

    Lovesick

    Originally published online May 11, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Lovesick by Melodie Yvonne

    Why do I gotta be so damned lovesick like this
    Hopin’, prayin’, wishin’ all for just one kiss
    Your face behind my eyes already just like this
    Why do I gotta be so damned lovesick like this

    How am I so nervous I can hardly breathe
    How’d do you do that thing that makes my knees so weak
    How is it your smile can make my heart skip beats
    That gleam inside your eyes’ll be the end of me

    Why do I gotta be so damned lovesick like this
    Hopin’, prayin’, wishin’ all for just one kiss
    Your face behind my eyes already just like this
    Why do I gotta be so damned lovesick like this

    Your aura’s straight and narrow and it soothes my soul
    After you make my vibes go crazy though you’ll never know
    Just gotta hold it all together shortly ‘til you go
    Then back to dreamin’ ‘bout you when I’m all alone

    Just maybe don’t get close and we can just be friends
    Don’t worry ‘cause I pack a telephoto lens
    It’s not my fault I’m scared to play this game again
    It’s just that I can tell that you were born to win

    Why do I gotta be so damned lovesick like this
    Hopin’, prayin’, wishin’ all for just one kiss
    Your face behind my eyes already just like this
    Why do I gotta be so damned lovesick like this

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  • Love For Today

    Love For Today

    Originally published online May 11, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Love For Today by Melodie Yvonne

    You don’t have to give me the world
    Just please don’t take it away
    You don’t have to tell me you love me
    If there’s no love there’s nothin’ to say

    You don’t have to come here to save me
    Or promise to take me away
    Just please love me here in this moment
    So I can have love for today

    I don’t need your friends or your money
    What I want’s what money can’t buy
    I just wanna feel your arms wrapped around me
    And feel how I look through your eyes

    You don’t have to take time to save me
    Or promise to take me away
    Just please love me here in this moment
    So I can have love for today

    You don’t have to make me no promise
    Just be here if only one day
    Just lie to me here in this moment
    And let me forget you can’t stay

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  • Outside the Walls

    Outside the Walls

    Originally written Oct 5, 1993 & published on Photographic Melodie — view here

    Outside the Walls by Melodie Yvonne
    (Originally written for Creative Writing at JCHS in October 1993)

    As I walk out my door, I feel the same as any other time.  I know that when I leave the security of my home I must, again, confront the outside world.  The impregnable walls of my room are now gone.

    Today is somewhat dreary.  I cannot wander far for it is raining.  I am content to sit and gaze at the world from the quiet seclusion of my garage.

    I look around and noticed I am alone.  No one else has ventured from their homes today.  There are no children playing or people walking as there would be on any given sunny day.  There is no noise except the tapping of the rain hitting the ground, and an occasional vehicle passing by.  Everything appears dead.  All of the leaves have fallen from the trees and lay upon the wet ground.

    The sky is gray and unpenetrated by any sunlight.  I become mesmerized by a single puddle.  With each drop of rain, a momentary circle is formed, and then disappears only to be replaced by another.

    Today, although really no different from any other day, seems a little more real in my mind.  All it really takes is just a moment to step back and look at the world from a different view to appreciate it more.  I guess everything looks a little bit better when one looks at it from a distance.

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  • LIVE Poetry from Melodie

    LIVE Poetry from Melodie

    Hey, Friends!

    Thank you all again so much for sticking with me during my posting overload as I transfer all of my poetry to this wonderful new site! Your amazing support means everything to me… it’s a lot less lonely having you all along for the ride.

    Ever yours,
    Melodie Yvonne

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  • Understated

    Understated

    Originally published online March 16, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Understated by Melodie Yvonne

    My frustration here is understated
    But I’m so tired of being berated
    I just want that piece of pie
    That got everyone else here high

    I’m sick of being not quite real
    It’s not fair I don’t get to feel
    I’m sick of having to just take
    All the while just tryin’ to make it

    I’m tired of having to turn a cheek
    Stop treating me like I am weak
    It’s every ounce of strength I got
    To not turn into what I’m not

    It’s every little bit of soul
    To keep from losing all control
    It’s every ounce of energy
    To keep me from destroying me

    So please stop jumping on this wagon
    To kick me off when I’m still draggin’
    Please stop disrespecting me
    Before I can’t just turn a cheek

    Understand that I’m still real
    Even if I’m not ideal
    Understand that I am human
    And you hurt with what you’re doin’

    My frustration’s understated
    Please don’t take your chance to weigh in
    Please just go and let me be
    I don’t need help destroying me.

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  • Make the Night

    Make the Night

    Originally published online April 19, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Make the Night by Melodie Yvonne

    I’m lost inside and don’t know why
    And it just breaks my heart
    I look and look most every day
    But still I fall apart

    I spin around in circles
    All the while just standing still
    But I’d rather be all crazy
    Than just hide it all with pills

    I don’t know what I’m gonna do
    If I can’t make this right
    But now baby if you help me
    Maybe I can make the night

    I’m running far away from you
    But I’m still standing here
    I’m wasting so much precious time
    Just paralyzed with fear

    I’m wide-awake in nightmares
    Though I just can’t sleep to dream
    And I’m stuck here in your shadows
    Trying to cling to anything

    I don’t know what I’m gonna do
    To get through this long life
    But now baby if you hold me
    Maybe I can make the night

    No I don’t know what I’m gonna do
    If I can’t make this right
    I don’t know what I’m gonna do
    To get through this long life

    No I don’t know what I’m gonna do
    If I can’t make this right
    But now baby if you help me
    Maybe I can make the night

    Yeah now baby if you help me
    Maybe I can make the night

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  • Tryin’ to Forgive You

    Tryin’ to Forgive You

    Originally published online March 22, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here
    This piece can also be found in the print collection Seed Guzzler: And Other Succubi — available here

    Tryin’ to Forgive You by Melodie Yvonne

    I hope somebody ruins your life
    The way you fucked up mine
    I hope you fall in love with
    Someone that’s the same alike

    I wish I could just hurt you
    The same way that you hurt me
    But I’m tryin’ to forgive you
    So that I can set me free

    I wish I was as good at playin’
    All your selfish games
    Your constant string of sorrys
    Knot into a tired refrain

    And every single time that
    I can finally start to breathe
    You do some fucked up shit
    And knock the wind right out of me

    I wish I could just hurt you
    The same way that you hurt me
    I’m begging God to help me
    ‘Cause I know this isn’t me

    I wish I could just hurt you
    The same way that you hurt me
    But I’m tryin’ to forgive you
    So that I can set me free

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  • All I Am is All I Was

    All I Am is All I Was

    Originally published online March 30, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    All I Am is All I Was by Melodie Yvonne

    Sometimes you’re still all I see when I close my eyes
    Sometimes all these thoughts of you just keep me paralyzed
    I don’t know why it’s been so long and I’m not over you
    Especially when a bit of luck was all I was to you

    All I was was just another game for you to play
    A pretty little trinket like a photo on display
    All I was was everything you wanted me to be
    And now all I am is wonderin’ why you walked away from me

    I replay every second, every moment in my mind
    Looking at the details hoping for a clue to find
    Looking for a taste of you to ease my troubled mind
    But all I can see is just your nothings left for me to find

    All I was was just another game for you to play
    A stupid little trinket on your shelf all tucked away
    All I was was everything you wanted me to be
    And now all I am is wonderin’ why you walked away from me

    Every night I pray to God for just a bit of sleep
    I wish on every single star to heal me way down deep
    But seems like all i ever do is not get over you
    And I’m tired of all this aching that keeps goin’ through and through

    I’m wonderin’ when that day will come when I keep movin’ on
    I’m wonderin’ when you won’t be there in every single song
    I’m wonderin’ when that day will come when i can set me free
    And when i can finally forgive you for what you did to me

    All I ever was just another game for you to play
    A pretty little trinket like a photo on display
    All I was was everything you wanted me to be
    And now all I am is wonderin’ why you walked away from me

    Yeah now all I am is wonderin’ why you walked away from me

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  • Rain Check

    Rain Check

    Originally published online March 2, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here
    This piece can also be found in the collection psalms 2000:17-24 — available on Amazon here

    Rain Check by Melodie Yvonne

    A rain check on my moral gain
    Will not be good another day
    You grow & learn & let in change
    Or else you wilt & fade away

    I know ‘cause I got way off track
    Got stuck in place a while back
    And now I’ve got to get me movin’
    Got to get myself a’groovin’

    Got to find the hope I lost
    I’m in too deep, my soul’s the cost
    And I’m no longer one to lose
    I’m not the one that’s all confused

    I’ll not sit here & waste away
    While you stay gone another day
    I’m not the one that’s taking flight
    Now I’m the one that’s here to fight

    A rain check on our moral gain
    Will not be good another day
    We grow & learn & let in change
    Or else we’ll wilt & fade away

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  • You On Repeat

    You On Repeat

    Originally published online Feb 13, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    You On Repeat by Melodie Yvonne

    I loved your heart there from the start but soon we came undone
    We drank and raged most every day until it wasn’t fun
    But if we could erase history and relive it all again
    I’d rewind every second and replay until the end

    I’d follow you around the world just hoping for a glimpse
    My butterflies would flip-flop at the thought of just a chance
    But this time I’d say all those words I never got to say
    I’d be walkin’ right behind you ‘stead of walkin’ right away

    If we could erase history and relive it all again
    I’d rewind every second and replay until the end
    I’d dance through all the good times and I’d sway through every heartache
    Then I’d put you on repeat so we’d still be together always

    I wouldn’t run from thunderclouds that never even rained
    I’d open my umbrella and I’d shield you from the pain
    I wouldn’t need to say those words I never got to say
    ‘Cause I’d follow you down Main with love written across my face

    If we could erase history and relive it all again
    I’d rewind every second and replay until the end
    I’d dance through all the good times and I’d sway through every heartache
    Then I’d put you on repeat so we’d still be together always

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