Poetry by Melodie Yvonne

Words from a gonzoesque life in an oh so gonzoless world

  • Wild

    Wild

    Originally published online Feb 16, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even — available here

    Wild by Melodie Yvonne

    It’s hard for me to listen ‘cause your words just melt away
    It’s not for lack of tryin’, though, your eyes lead me astray
    They’re like the calm before the storm above the ocean’s waves
    And they wane and wax so gently as their moonbeams light my way

    Every time I look at you I’m lost in your embrace
    And even when I don’t see you my mind still sees your face
    My heart and soul are out of whack and so far out of place
    I’m so far ahead, but still somehow I’m losin’ in this race

    I feel the way you see me and I see the way you smile
    I’m tryin’ to move on, but I’ve been movin’ on awhile
    And every time you look at me I go another mile
    Runnin’ in the fuckin’ wrong direction confident and wild

    I’m tryin’ to out run you, but I let you set my pace
    My heart it beats for want of you each time I see your face
    All logic goes right out the window lost without a trace
    And I’m just fool on the wrong block and stuck out in the rain

    I feel the way you see me and I see the way you smile
    I’m tryin’ to move on, but I’ve been movin’ on awhile
    And every time you look at me I go another mile
    Runnin’ in the fuckin’ wrong direction confident and wild

    Each time I look into your eyes I’m lost in outer space
    I’m tryin’ not to panic, but my guidebook’s been erased
    I know I should be patient but I’ve had all I can take
    And I know that I should run away, but I just need a taste

    I feel the way you see me and I see the way you smile
    I’m tryin’ to move on, but I’ve been movin’ on awhile
    And every time you look at me I go another mile
    Runnin’ in the fuckin’ wrong direction confident and wild

    Runnin’ in the fuckin’ wrong direction confident and wild

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  • Nowhere

    Nowhere

    Originally published online Feb 15, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even — available here

    Nowhere by Melodie Yvonne

    If you can’t let me in then please just shut me out
    I’ve been so close to givin’ up more times than I can count
    I’m tired of wonderin’ what you’re thinkin’ every single day
    And I’m not a boomerang that just comes back when thrown away

    Please just let me in or please just let me go
    Please don’t keep me runnin’ down the middle of the road
    Please don’t keep me treadin’ in your sea of ifs and doubts
    Either throw me out a lifeline or step back and let me drown

    Take this leash from ‘round my neck and please just let me go
    Let me just go back to bein’ someone you don’t know
    Let me wander back away and meld into the crowd
    If you’re never gonna miss me let me go and let me out

    If you can’t let me in then please just shut the door
    You gotta let me go if you can’t give a little more
    ‘Cause what you’re doin’ just ain’t right and I’m so insecure
    Either please just walk away or pick my heart up off the floor

    Please just let me in or please just let me out
    I’ve been so close to givin’ up more times than I can count
    Please don’t keep me treadin’ in your sea of ifs and doubts
    Either throw me out a lifeline or step back and let me drown

    ♥♥♥

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    ♥♥♥

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  • Waitin’

    Waitin’

    Originally published online Jan 21, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even — available here

    Waitin’ by Melodie Yvonne

    I sit and wonder what’s the point
    And then I smoke another joint
    It’s not enough to just exist here
    Wanna live but swallowed by fear
    Wanna fight but I’m so tired
    Don’t wanna go another mile
    So then I just get stuck and sit here
    Waitin’ ’til the future gets clear

    I’m just waitin’ in my room
    Been layin’ here since way passed noon
    With all these thoughts just comin’ at me
    Wish I could just let ’em have me

    Wish I could just let me go
    And give up everything I know
    Wish I could just hit a button
    And see what the fuck’s a-coming
    Wish I could just make you see me
    And then maybe you could free me
    But I can’t so I just sit here
    Waitin’ til my future gets clear

    But it just keeps gettin’ fuzzy
    How can you care? I don’t love me
    All I am’s a lump that sits here
    Barely in and barely out there
    All I am’s a waste of time
    Even if I give you mine
    So now I’m stuck and I just sit here
    Wishin’ I could draw your heart near

    I’m just waitin’ in my room
    Been layin’ here since way passed noon
    With all these thoughts just comin’ at me
    Wish I could just let ’em have me

    I’m just waitin’ for the ending
    ‘Cause I’m just so done pretending
    I just want it to be over
    And I dont want to be sober
    So I just curl up and lay here
    Waitin’ for the coast to be clear
    Waitin’ for that happy ending
    If I could just go back to dreaming

    I’m just waitin’ in my room
    Been layin’ here since way passed noon
    With all these thoughts just comin’ at me
    Wish I could just let ’em have me

    ♥♥♥

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    ♥♥♥

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  • Drivin’ for Miles

    Drivin’ for Miles

    Originally published online Dec 14, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Drivin’ for Miles by Melodie Yvonne

    There’s an ocean of fear right at my surface
    Keep asking myself if all of it’s worth it
    I’m just so damn sick of all of this hurtin’
    So please just reject me so I can be certain

    Gets harder and harder to go on this way
    I’m drivin’ for miles just to hear what you’ll say
    I’m drivin’ for miles hoping you’ll look my way
    Then all of these fears just make me turn away

    I’m just so damn scared of all of these feelings
    It just takes one look and you got my mind reeling
    Can’t think what to say ‘cause I’m wanting to touch you
    I just wish I knew if you’re feeling these vibes too

    Tired of this wishin’ and tired of confusion
    Tired of this lustin’ and wonderin’ what you’re doing
    Feel like a Molotov cocktail been shelved
    And if I don’t burst soon I just might throw myself

    Gets harder and harder to go on this way
    I’m drivin’ for miles just to hear what you’ll say
    I’m drivin’ for miles hoping you’ll look my way
    Then all of these fears just get in my way

    I’m scared of these feelings and scared you’ll reject me
    Scared ‘cause there’s no one left here to protect me
    Scared that I’ll get you, but scared that I’ll lose you
    So I just keep driving for miles to be near you

    It’s harder and harder to go on this way
    I’m drivin’ for miles just to hear what you’ll say
    I’m drivin’ for miles hoping you’ll look my way
    ‘Til all of these fears just make me turn away

    Until all of these fears just get in my way

    ♥♥♥

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  • Please Stay, Go Away

    Please Stay, Go Away

    Originally published online Dec 10, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Please Stay, Go Away by Melodie Yvonne

    I’m so friggin’ sad my heart breaks every day
    I pray and I pray, but it won’t go away
    And all of my tears they just get in the way
    I just want you to leave, but I want you to stay

    I wish I could think of just one thing to say
    But all of my thoughts they just get in the way
    I wish we could be like we were in the days
    Before all of the heartache that led us astray

    I wanna believe it’ll all be ok
    I wanna believe everything that you say
    But life ripped my heart out and threw it away
    Now my mind is just broken and full of decay

    I’m so friggin’ sad my heart breaks every day
    I pray and I pray, but it won’t go away
    And all of my tears they just get in the way
    I just want you to leave, but I want you to stay

    I just wanna sleep, but I’m stuck wide awake
    I don’t wanna see you, but I miss your face
    I’m feelin’ so stupid like one of your games
    Where you made up the rules and I don’t wanna play

    I wish I could die make it all go away
    I think if I give you more I’m gonna break
    But I just can’t stop, I just can’t turn away
    ‘Cause as much as I fight it He made me this way

    I’m so friggin’ sad my heart breaks every day
    I pray and I pray, but it won’t go away
    And all of my tears they just get in the way
    I just want you to leave, but I want you to stay

    I just want you to be here, but please go away

    ♥♥♥

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  • Tired of Dreaming

    Tired of Dreaming

    Originally published online Nov 8, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Tired of Dreaming by Melodie Yvonne

    You were in my dream again here just the other day
    I prayed to God again today to make it go away
    ‘Cause if I just can’t have you then I’d like to have my way
    And you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    I wasn’t quite awake and yet I wasn’t quite asleep
    And there you were without a word a presence felt so deep
    I knew that it was you because you didn’t miss a beat
    And now I’m clinging to imaginary memories I can’t keep

    “Cause you were in my dream again here just the other day
    I prayed to God again today to make it go away
    ‘Cause if I just can’t have you then I’ll just be on my way
    And you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    I’m trying not to see you but your smile it melts my heart
    Your touch is like a pull cord and it’s giving me a start
    And now I just keep thinking ‘bout you every time we part
    But I know I just come with the frame and you’re a work of art

    I wanna close my eyes again and feel your scruffy face
    I wanna close my eyes again and feel your strong embrace
    But wide awake I know that I just need to learn my place
    And all these thoughts I overanalyze I need to just erase

    You were in my dream again here just the other day
    I prayed to God again today to make it go away
    ‘Cause if I just can’t have you then I’d like to have my way
    And you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    No you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    ♥♥♥

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  • Sometimes It’s Too Late

    Sometimes It’s Too Late

    Originally published online Nov 7, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Sometimes It’s Too Late by Melodie Yvonne

    Sometimes it’s so hard to trust in my fate
    I’ve sure learned a lot, but not how to wait
    Sometimes my cold heart freezes with hate
    And I worry tomorrow’s already too late

    Sometimes I just sit and cry to myself
    ‘Cause I know that it’s too late for me to get help
    Ridiculous dreaming is all that I’ve felt
    My high expectations teeter on my shelf

    Sometimes I just lay there awake in my dream
    Knowing that nobody is what they seem
    I’d rather have dirty than truth that’s unclean
    Fuck all your perfect and give me obscene

    Sometimes it’s so hard to trust in my fate
    I’ve sure learned a lot, but not how to wait
    Sometimes my cold heart freezes with hate
    And I worry tomorrow’s already too late

    ♥♥♥

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  • Fading Away

    Fading Away

    Originally published online Oct 8, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Fading Away by Melodie Yvonne

    Your face is in the picture of my mind still all the time
    The way you make me feel I swear I thought I’d never find
    I think about the ways I wish that I could make you mine
    And I don’t know how much longer I can keep on toein’ this line

    I try to not think of you and how all you are is real
    I try to just not think about these crazy things I feel
    I pray that it just goes away so I don’t have to deal
    But I’m just a lil wimpy thing and now I’m your last meal

    I thought I saw inside your heart and how it looked like mine
    But you had yours all locked away somewhere I couldn’t find
    I wasted parts of me while you just sat and wasted time
    And now everyday these everythings are so real in my mind

    You never gave me anything you’d ever have to feel
    You never gave me any hope that you were all for real
    But how could I have known your heart’s on loan and made of steel
    And now all that I can do is fade away and try to heal

    ♥♥♥

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  • Looking Away

    Looking Away

    Originally published online Sept 1, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Looking Away by Melodie Yvonne

    I can’t forget myself with you ‘cause there’s no telling what I’d do
    I just can’t look you in the eye ‘cause it’s the drug that gets me high
    I’m just here thinkin’ ‘bout your touch and how I crave it oh so much
    I just can’t wait to see your face so I can look the other way

    ‘Cause, baby, if I catch your eye the sky’s the limit, I’m so high
    I’m lost inside those pretty blues and suddenly it’s just us two
    And, baby, it’s a long goodbye when you got me electrified
    And I just think ‘bout all I’d do, so I just best not look at you

    Darlin’ you just got me wanton with that sexy brain you’re flaunting
    You’re a hooker in a red dress beggin’ me to take a taste test
    Just the simple thought of you has got me ‘bout to come unglued
    You’re the bane of my existence and I’m losin’ all resistance

    Baby, if I catch your eye the sky’s the limit, I’m so high
    I’m just thinkin’ ’bout those blues and suddenly it’s just us two
    And now I’m all electrified, I’m ‘bout to burst and I can’t hide
    That I just think ‘bout all I’d do, so I just best not look at you

    I best not look right at your face, I better not get in your space
    I gotta keep that three inch bubble, peep your peepers through the Hubble
    Or I don’t know what I’d do ‘cause I just wanna melt with you
    And fuse together our vibrations ‘til we make a revelation

    Baby, if I catch your eye the sky’s the limit, I’m so high
    I’m lost inside those pretty blues and suddenly it’s just us two
    And, baby, it’s a long goodbye when you got me electrified
    And I just think ‘bout all I’d do, so I just best not look at you

    ♥♥♥

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    ♥♥♥

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  • Vernie’s Garden

    Vernie’s Garden

    Originally published online Aug 20, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Vernie’s Garden by Melodie Yvonne
    “Vernie’s Garden” is inspired by and dedicated to Nel Hoon and Vernie Long ❤ ❤ ❤

    A move from Wells to Vernie’s garden’s
    just the place to start restarting
    It’s the kind of place that finds you,
    gots the kind of love that binds you
    It’s a home and it’s a song
    that helps you move your life along
    And if you keep it simple, stupid,
    this home warms your heart like Cupid

    Now’s the time for me to move on
    down to Vernie’s place I’m goin’
    Everything I’ve ever wanted’s
    right back where my love first started

    It’s the now, and it’s the echo
    of a life I just can’t let go
    And I really wouldn’t want to
    walk away from Vernie’s garden
    So I pack my stuff and head down
    to North 16th, and my heart pounds
    ‘Cause my load is kinda heavy,
    but I’m way passed good and ready

    Now’s the time for me to move on
    down to Vernie’s place I’m goin’
    Everything I’ve ever wanted’s
    right back where my love first started

    Now’s the time for me to move on
    down to Vernie’s place I’m goin’
    Everything I’ve ever wanted’s
    right back there in Vernie’s garden

    Video courtesy of Nel Hoon

    ♥♥♥

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    ♥♥♥

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