Originally published online Aug 2, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here This piece can also be found in the collectionpsalms 2000:17-24— available on Amazon here
Stuck in Forward by Melodie Yvonne
Sometimes things break Sometimes I break I’m just as fragile as people
Sometimes I fall And can’t get back up Trampled by all of the sheeple
Sometimes I just drink And can’t find myself Gettin’ lost in all of the “equals”
Sometimes I just cry And I don’t know why My toxicity toeing on lethal
Sometimes I stop thinkin’ Ignore all the truths And get stuck in an unending free fall
I think I need help I think I need a savior But Jesus is hid by his people
So sometimes I hide I just wanna die But I’d probably wind up a shit beetle
So I’ll just keep goin’ Blind full speed ahead Like Snowman bound and down in his diesel
Then one day with a blink Again I start to sink And I’m right back in my nightmare’s sequel
Sometimes things break Sometimes I break Once again I’m as fragile as people
And then I fall And can’t get back up Stuck in forward, tires spinnin’ in evil
So then I just drink And then I lose myself And get lost in all of my “equals”
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Originally published online July 20, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here This piece can also be found in the collectionpsalms 2000:17-24— available on Amazon here
Heavy by Melodie Yvonne
My stomach’s in knots & I can’t feel a thing ‘Cept the rootin’ and tinglin’ up in my brain My mind is all heavy & I’m gettin’ scared Of the damage that might one day not be repaired
My butterflies twistin’ & turnin’ inside I’m pretty sure this time there’s nowhere to hide I gotta keep movin’, but I gotta stop ‘Cause if this shit keeps goin’ I’m just gonna drop
I’m boilin’ over, I’m right on the brink And I’m certainly not innocent like you think One day real soon your fucked life’s coming at you There’s nowhere to hide in a world that beget you
You gotta stop, it’s time you took a break Step back & look at the mess you have made Turn back to God, it’s time you made amends ‘Cause He sees right on through all your bullshit pretend
Stomach’s in knots & I can’t feel a thing ‘Cept the rootin’ and tinglin’ up in my brain My mind is all heavy & I’m gettin’ scared Of your damage that’s too late for me to repair
Stomach’s in knots & I can’t feel a thing ‘Cept the rootin’ and tinglin’ up in my brain My mind is all heavy & I’m gettin’ scared Of the damage that’s too late for you to repair
Yeah, my mind is all heavy & I’m gettin’ scared Of the damage that’s too late to ever repair
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Originally published online June 12, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here This piece can also be found in the print collection Seed Guzzler: And Other Succubi — available here
Bad Date: A Fool Waiting On The Right Block by Melodie Yvonne
You think you’re just as slick as motherfuckin’ Pee-wee Herman Goin’ to the movies with his big ole jug of Jergens But really what you don’t know is you’re nothin’ but a player Chokin’ out your next commander like you’re motherfuckin’ Vadar
You think you’re extra tasty like a chili cheese burrito But you sure ain’t seen spicy ’til you get a load of me though You make excuses sayin’ that you need to tend your fire But I guess you just ain’t nothing but a motherfuckin’ liar
You treat me like I’m worthless, but you’ll miss me when it’s over You think you got me on a leash, but you’re no Casanova I finally see the truth in you and this is what I see I don’t deserve none of your shit and you don’t deserve me
You’re driftin’ through this life all full of pride and unaware You’re actin’ like a toddler somehow confident AND scared You puff up big & brave, but tell the truth you wouldn’t dare What you did was really hurt me like you never even cared
I’m holier than thou, but you’re so blindly narcissistic You throw out your opinions like you’re Weiner sendin’ dick pics It’s gettin’ old real fast and I’m not gonna take your shit One day soon I will be over you and maybe it’ll stick
You treat me like I’m worthless, but you’ll miss me when it’s over You think you got me on a leash, but you’re no Casanova I finally see the truth in you and this is what I see I don’t deserve none of your shit and you don’t deserve me
You act like you’re the greatest of them all, but I’m not useless You think you’re smart as Stephen Hawking, but you’re really clueless It’s gettin’ old real fast and I’m not gonna take your shit One day soon I will be over you and you can suck my clit
You treat me like I’m worthless, but you’ll miss me when it’s over You think you got me on a leash, but you’re no Casanova I finally see the truth in you and this is what I see I don’t deserve none of your shit and you don’t deserve me
Yeah, I don’t deserve none of your shit and you don’t deserve me
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Originally published online March 22, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here
The Underside of Love by Melodie Yvonne
The underside of you and me lies right below the surface It waits and smiles and tries to hide, but it will always hurt us It really doesn’t matter what I do or what I say ‘Cause the underside of you might hide, but it won’t go away
I fight with everything I have to try to make us better I used to rage but now I’m calm through all your stormy weather But is it really fixin’ things for me to just pretend? Wish that I could just believe in you and all of this would end
Wish that I could just believe in every single word you say I wanna have some faith that you can make it go away But every time your lips are movin’ all I hear are lies You’re just spewin’ out excuses, makin’ up your alibis
You shift the blame and try to make it everybody else You’re pointin’ all those fingers, but not lookin’ at yourself You’re talkin’ ’bout how Jesus would do this and would do that But you’re just a selfish glutton suckin’ souls and gettin’ fat
The underside of you’s no longer right below the surface It’s bubbled up so much that all this heartache isn’t worth it It really doesn’t matter what I do or what I say ‘Cause I’m done with all your bullshit and wish you’d just go away
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Originally published online March 22, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here
Platonic Romance by Melodie Yvonne
Here’s where I stop giving all of my time and my heart’s energies Here’s where I stop letting you cop out givin’ some love back to me
If I’d known I was pushin’ too hard And you didn’t think I’d understand I woulda backed off and I wouldn’t be here in this lonely platonic romance
I still just can’t do what I’m told ‘Cause I’m really not young, but not old If I could I’d just go with the flow Then I wouldn’t be left in the cold
If I’d known you were happy alone I’d have run back when I had the chance So please let me go don’t just keep me for show in this lonely platonic romance
But I’m guessing it’s over for now Though I’m still kinda scared you’ll come back Right about when I start feelin’ good I’ll be right back under attack
From your eyes that can look in my soul And your smile that makes me want to dance So I’m beggin’ you please I am down on my knees Set me free this platonic romance
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Originally published online April 12, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here
Monotony by Melodie Yvonne
Boredom wraps around me like a noose around my neck If you could die of boredom it’s the closest I could get I’ve lost my job and stuck I am up in this horrid mess And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess
I’m goin’ crazy thinkin’ ‘bout how we’ll all make great pets For the money that has bought our soul’s accumulated debts And when it might be over’s kinda anybody’s guess ‘Cause the world has caught on fire and we’re scared of gettin’ wet
Boredom tightens up that noose there’s not much 02 left My mind just goes in circles and it’s keepin’ me adrift I scroll and scroll until my eyes are aching in their pits And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess
This tedium’s a medium for cataclysmic stress ‘Cause boredom don’t travel alone it travels with its friends Depression, gluttony, and apathy they all descend And I’m really not quite sure if any of this has an end
Boredom wraps around me like a noose around my neck If you could die of boredom it’s the closest I could get I’ve lost my job and stuck I am up in this horrid mess And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess
I’m goin’ crazy thinkin’ ‘bout how we’ll all make great pets For the money that has bought our soul’s accumulated debts And when it might be over’s kinda anybody’s guess ‘Cause the world has caught on fire and we’re scared of gettin’ wet
Boredom tightens up that noose there’s not much 02 left My mind just goes in circles and it’s keepin’ me adrift I scroll and scroll until my eyes are aching in their pits And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess
This tedium’s a medium for cataclysmic stress ‘Cause boredom don’t travel alone it travels with its friends Depression, gluttony, and apathy they all descend And I’m really not quite sure if any of this has an end
Boredom wraps around me like a noose around my neck If you could die of boredom it’s the closest I could get I’ve lost my job and stuck I am up in this horrid mess And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess
I’m goin’ crazy thinkin’ ‘bout how we’ll all make great pets For the money that has bought our soul’s accumulated debts And when it might be over’s kinda anybody’s guess ‘Cause the world has caught on fire and we’re scared of gettin’ wet
Boredom tightens up that noose there’s not much 02 left My mind just goes in circles and it’s keepin’ me adrift I scroll and scroll until my eyes are aching in their pits And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess
This tedium’s a medium for cataclysmic stress ‘Cause boredom don’t travel alone it travels with its friends Depression, gluttony, and apathy they all descend And I’m really not quite sure if any of this has an end
Boredom wraps around me like a noose around my neck If you could die of boredom it’s the closest I could get I’ve lost my job and stuck I am up in this horrid mess And I’m thinkin’ when it’s over’s kinda anybody’s guess…
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Originally published online March 22, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here This piece can also be found in the collectionpsalms 2000:17-24— available on Amazon here
The Evil That Will Be by Melodie Yvonne
Sometimes I just wish I could crawl in and die Keep lookin’ around for just one reason why But all that I see is another that kills me And all of the evil that someday just will be
All that I see is the faces of horror The blood and the sins that surround us like auras And pick off our minds each one at a time While we all put on masks and pretend that we’re fine
All that I see is the end drawing nearer But not close enough because all of this fear hurts All that I want is just someone to get me Or maybe just someone that wouldn’t forget me
Sometimes I just wish I could crawl in and die Keep lookin’ around for just one reason why But all that I see is another that kills me And all of the evil that someday just will be
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Originally published online June 19, 2020 & in the collection Photographic Memories: 7even— available here
Foolish by Melodie Yvonne
If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you If it wasn’t all my fault then have some too It only took one trusted friend and that was you If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you
It only took one person to cross that line It only took one person to make me blind I was lookin’ for somethin’ from you I’d never find And you should’ve gave me love not just a hooker’s bribe
If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you If it wasn’t all my fault then have some too It only took one trusted friend and that was you If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you
I know it’s all my fault, so who am I to say That you started all the trouble that has come my way But keeping you here in my life each passing day Drags me further the down wrong way of a packed freeway
You drive a 100 mph and just stand still You’re the reason people shouldn’t have free will All your drama grows and oozes like an oil spill And I gotta say I think I’ve finally had my fill
If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you If it wasn’t all my fault then have some too It only took one trusted friend and that was you If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you
How the hell can you just sit there in disguise The evil washes over you before my eyes And I don’t know how the hell I’m somehow still surprised By your constant never ending list of alibis
If there’s anyone else to blame then I blame you If it wasn’t all my fault then have some too It only took one trusted friend and that was you And it’s time to say goodbye now ‘cause I think we’re through.
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Originally published online Oct 18, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf— available here This piece can also be found in the collectionpsalms 2000:17-24— available on Amazon here
Be Love by Melodie Yvonne
Narcissistic stupid bullshit Floods the world like it’s atomic Everybody’s out for somethin’ Everybody’s out here frontin’
We forgot what we are here for We forgot that we should love more We forgot about our mission ‘Cause we’re tryin’ to get attention
Now we’re here fallin’ apart ‘Cause we forgot about our hearts And pretty soon if we keep suckin’ We’ll be swallowed by the nothin’
We’ll be swallowed by our egos Gettin’ lost in our own needs most Til our pleasures turn to sufferin’ And there’s no hope of recoverin’
So it’s time we stood for somethin’ Before our world turns into nothin’ And we’re lost with nothin’ left But frozen hearts and souls bereft
So now it’s time we stood for somethin’ Even just a lil dumb thing ‘Cause it starts with just one flicker Just one spark, one little whisper
Just one soul can change the world One tiny lil hidden pearl Can change a whole entire ocean And its whole entire motion
So don’t let go of your spirit Let it fill you and be near it Let go of your pride and ego Be the love that this world needs most
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