Poetry by Melodie Yvonne

Words from a gonzoesque life in an oh so gonzoless world

  • Drivin’ for Miles

    Drivin’ for Miles

    Originally published online Dec 14, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Drivin’ for Miles by Melodie Yvonne

    There’s an ocean of fear right at my surface
    Keep asking myself if all of it’s worth it
    I’m just so damn sick of all of this hurtin’
    So please just reject me so I can be certain

    Gets harder and harder to go on this way
    I’m drivin’ for miles just to hear what you’ll say
    I’m drivin’ for miles hoping you’ll look my way
    Then all of these fears just make me turn away

    I’m just so damn scared of all of these feelings
    It just takes one look and you got my mind reeling
    Can’t think what to say ‘cause I’m wanting to touch you
    I just wish I knew if you’re feeling these vibes too

    Tired of this wishin’ and tired of confusion
    Tired of this lustin’ and wonderin’ what you’re doing
    Feel like a Molotov cocktail been shelved
    And if I don’t burst soon I just might throw myself

    Gets harder and harder to go on this way
    I’m drivin’ for miles just to hear what you’ll say
    I’m drivin’ for miles hoping you’ll look my way
    Then all of these fears just get in my way

    I’m scared of these feelings and scared you’ll reject me
    Scared ‘cause there’s no one left here to protect me
    Scared that I’ll get you, but scared that I’ll lose you
    So I just keep driving for miles to be near you

    It’s harder and harder to go on this way
    I’m drivin’ for miles just to hear what you’ll say
    I’m drivin’ for miles hoping you’ll look my way
    ‘Til all of these fears just make me turn away

    Until all of these fears just get in my way

    ♥♥♥

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  • Please Stay, Go Away

    Please Stay, Go Away

    Originally published online Dec 10, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Please Stay, Go Away by Melodie Yvonne

    I’m so friggin’ sad my heart breaks every day
    I pray and I pray, but it won’t go away
    And all of my tears they just get in the way
    I just want you to leave, but I want you to stay

    I wish I could think of just one thing to say
    But all of my thoughts they just get in the way
    I wish we could be like we were in the days
    Before all of the heartache that led us astray

    I wanna believe it’ll all be ok
    I wanna believe everything that you say
    But life ripped my heart out and threw it away
    Now my mind is just broken and full of decay

    I’m so friggin’ sad my heart breaks every day
    I pray and I pray, but it won’t go away
    And all of my tears they just get in the way
    I just want you to leave, but I want you to stay

    I just wanna sleep, but I’m stuck wide awake
    I don’t wanna see you, but I miss your face
    I’m feelin’ so stupid like one of your games
    Where you made up the rules and I don’t wanna play

    I wish I could die make it all go away
    I think if I give you more I’m gonna break
    But I just can’t stop, I just can’t turn away
    ‘Cause as much as I fight it He made me this way

    I’m so friggin’ sad my heart breaks every day
    I pray and I pray, but it won’t go away
    And all of my tears they just get in the way
    I just want you to leave, but I want you to stay

    I just want you to be here, but please go away

    ♥♥♥

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  • Tired of Dreaming

    Tired of Dreaming

    Originally published online Nov 8, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Tired of Dreaming by Melodie Yvonne

    You were in my dream again here just the other day
    I prayed to God again today to make it go away
    ‘Cause if I just can’t have you then I’d like to have my way
    And you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    I wasn’t quite awake and yet I wasn’t quite asleep
    And there you were without a word a presence felt so deep
    I knew that it was you because you didn’t miss a beat
    And now I’m clinging to imaginary memories I can’t keep

    “Cause you were in my dream again here just the other day
    I prayed to God again today to make it go away
    ‘Cause if I just can’t have you then I’ll just be on my way
    And you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    I’m trying not to see you but your smile it melts my heart
    Your touch is like a pull cord and it’s giving me a start
    And now I just keep thinking ‘bout you every time we part
    But I know I just come with the frame and you’re a work of art

    I wanna close my eyes again and feel your scruffy face
    I wanna close my eyes again and feel your strong embrace
    But wide awake I know that I just need to learn my place
    And all these thoughts I overanalyze I need to just erase

    You were in my dream again here just the other day
    I prayed to God again today to make it go away
    ‘Cause if I just can’t have you then I’d like to have my way
    And you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    No you just can’t stand there ghosting me and beggin’ me to stay

    ♥♥♥

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  • Sometimes It’s Too Late

    Sometimes It’s Too Late

    Originally published online Nov 7, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Sometimes It’s Too Late by Melodie Yvonne

    Sometimes it’s so hard to trust in my fate
    I’ve sure learned a lot, but not how to wait
    Sometimes my cold heart freezes with hate
    And I worry tomorrow’s already too late

    Sometimes I just sit and cry to myself
    ‘Cause I know that it’s too late for me to get help
    Ridiculous dreaming is all that I’ve felt
    My high expectations teeter on my shelf

    Sometimes I just lay there awake in my dream
    Knowing that nobody is what they seem
    I’d rather have dirty than truth that’s unclean
    Fuck all your perfect and give me obscene

    Sometimes it’s so hard to trust in my fate
    I’ve sure learned a lot, but not how to wait
    Sometimes my cold heart freezes with hate
    And I worry tomorrow’s already too late

    ♥♥♥

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  • Fading Away

    Fading Away

    Originally published online Oct 8, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Fading Away by Melodie Yvonne

    Your face is in the picture of my mind still all the time
    The way you make me feel I swear I thought I’d never find
    I think about the ways I wish that I could make you mine
    And I don’t know how much longer I can keep on toein’ this line

    I try to not think of you and how all you are is real
    I try to just not think about these crazy things I feel
    I pray that it just goes away so I don’t have to deal
    But I’m just a lil wimpy thing and now I’m your last meal

    I thought I saw inside your heart and how it looked like mine
    But you had yours all locked away somewhere I couldn’t find
    I wasted parts of me while you just sat and wasted time
    And now everyday these everythings are so real in my mind

    You never gave me anything you’d ever have to feel
    You never gave me any hope that you were all for real
    But how could I have known your heart’s on loan and made of steel
    And now all that I can do is fade away and try to heal

    ♥♥♥

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  • Looking Away

    Looking Away

    Originally published online Sept 1, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Looking Away by Melodie Yvonne

    I can’t forget myself with you ‘cause there’s no telling what I’d do
    I just can’t look you in the eye ‘cause it’s the drug that gets me high
    I’m just here thinkin’ ‘bout your touch and how I crave it oh so much
    I just can’t wait to see your face so I can look the other way

    ‘Cause, baby, if I catch your eye the sky’s the limit, I’m so high
    I’m lost inside those pretty blues and suddenly it’s just us two
    And, baby, it’s a long goodbye when you got me electrified
    And I just think ‘bout all I’d do, so I just best not look at you

    Darlin’ you just got me wanton with that sexy brain you’re flaunting
    You’re a hooker in a red dress beggin’ me to take a taste test
    Just the simple thought of you has got me ‘bout to come unglued
    You’re the bane of my existence and I’m losin’ all resistance

    Baby, if I catch your eye the sky’s the limit, I’m so high
    I’m just thinkin’ ’bout those blues and suddenly it’s just us two
    And now I’m all electrified, I’m ‘bout to burst and I can’t hide
    That I just think ‘bout all I’d do, so I just best not look at you

    I best not look right at your face, I better not get in your space
    I gotta keep that three inch bubble, peep your peepers through the Hubble
    Or I don’t know what I’d do ‘cause I just wanna melt with you
    And fuse together our vibrations ‘til we make a revelation

    Baby, if I catch your eye the sky’s the limit, I’m so high
    I’m lost inside those pretty blues and suddenly it’s just us two
    And, baby, it’s a long goodbye when you got me electrified
    And I just think ‘bout all I’d do, so I just best not look at you

    ♥♥♥

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  • Vernie’s Garden

    Vernie’s Garden

    Originally published online Aug 20, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Vernie’s Garden by Melodie Yvonne
    “Vernie’s Garden” is inspired by and dedicated to Nel Hoon and Vernie Long ❤ ❤ ❤

    A move from Wells to Vernie’s garden’s
    just the place to start restarting
    It’s the kind of place that finds you,
    gots the kind of love that binds you
    It’s a home and it’s a song
    that helps you move your life along
    And if you keep it simple, stupid,
    this home warms your heart like Cupid

    Now’s the time for me to move on
    down to Vernie’s place I’m goin’
    Everything I’ve ever wanted’s
    right back where my love first started

    It’s the now, and it’s the echo
    of a life I just can’t let go
    And I really wouldn’t want to
    walk away from Vernie’s garden
    So I pack my stuff and head down
    to North 16th, and my heart pounds
    ‘Cause my load is kinda heavy,
    but I’m way passed good and ready

    Now’s the time for me to move on
    down to Vernie’s place I’m goin’
    Everything I’ve ever wanted’s
    right back where my love first started

    Now’s the time for me to move on
    down to Vernie’s place I’m goin’
    Everything I’ve ever wanted’s
    right back there in Vernie’s garden

    Video courtesy of Nel Hoon

    ♥♥♥

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  • Simple Things

    Simple Things

    Originally published online Aug 17, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Simple Things by Melodie Yvonne

    I dream this lonely dream I’m in, I’m waitin’ for your face
    I’m waitin’ to be next to you, and fill this empty space

    I wanna be so close to you, but I just don’t know how
    So I pump that volume next to me ’til all my thoughts are drowned

    My heart keeps growin’ bluer, and my lungs are turnin’ green
    Still I can’t get you off my mind, it’s all those simple things

    It’s every word you said to me, and every word you don’t
    It’s when you’re sidled next to me that I feel most at home

    And home is where the heart is, so my heart’s right there with you
    In that dimly lit hotel room somewhere just right passed the moon

    My heart keeps growin’ bluer, and my heads not where it seems
    I just can’t get you off my mind, it’s all those simple things

    It’s all the ways you look at me, and everything you do
    In that dimly lit hotel room somewhere just right passed the moon

    Yeah my heart keeps growin’ bluer everyday you’re not around
    I still can’t dig you out my mind ‘cause you’re so underground

    I just wanna be near you, and I don’t wanna come down
    So I stick that needle on, and pump the volume on the sound

    My heart keeps growin’ bluer, and my lungs are turnin’ green
    Still I can’t get you off my mind, it’s all those simple things

    It’s all the things you said to me, and everything that’s you
    In that dimly lit hotel room somewhere just right passed the moon

    ♥♥♥

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  • Control

    Control

    Originally published online June 26, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here
    This piece can also be found in the Poetry Collaboration Sin & Skin — available on Amazon here

    Control by Melodie Yvonne

    When I’m thinking ‘bout you are you thinking ‘bout me too?
    When I’m all here flustered can you feel what I can do?
    When I close my eyes and feel you deep down in my soul
    Do you feel me somewhere with you there about to lose control?

    My skin tingles all over at the thought of just your touch
    It’s like an addict’s fever ‘cause I’m wantin’ you so much
    And even if I let myself feel you until the end
    It just starts right on back over and I’m wantin’ you again

    When I’m thinking ‘bout you are you thinking ‘bout me too?
    When I’m all here flustered can you feel what I can do?
    When I close my eyes and feel you deep down in my soul
    Do you feel me somewhere with you there about to lose control?

    I’m just overheated and I’m wantin’ you so much
    I promise what I got to offer would be quite enough
    But if you let me offer somethin’ just a little more
    I’d be everything you wanted, your Madonna and your whore

    When I’m thinking ‘bout you are you thinking ‘bout me too?
    When I’m all here flustered can you feel what I can do?
    When I close my eyes and feel you deep down in my soul
    Do you feel me somewhere with you there about to lose control?

    ‘Cause all I want is just to be there ‘bout to lose control
    An infinite amount of you way deep down in my soul
    A universe of us just on the verge of letting go
    Do you feel me somewhere with you there about to lose control ?

    ♥♥♥

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    ♥♥♥

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  • Again

    Again

    Originally published online June 29, 2019 & in the collection Photographic Memories: Deux Mille Dix-Neuf — available here

    Again by Melodie Yvonne

    I don’t wanna live inside this sin I’m living in
    I don’t wanna lay awake reliving it again
    I don’t wanna feel this breaking heart for one more day
    I just wish there was a way that I could make it go away

    These never ending nightmares replay deep inside my mind
    Don’t dig in any deeper ‘cause you won’t like what you find
    Depravity and soulless lust tattooed deep in my skin
    It’s a never ending battle that I’m never gonna win

    I wish there was a way that I could make it go away
    I never sleep, but somehow I’m just sleeping life away
    It’s gettin’ harder not to drink and piss it all away
    But I just don’t wanna feel this breaking heart for one more day

    I’m running out of duct tape and my soul is getting thin
    I’ve always got my towel, but I’m about to throw it in
    I’m moving way passed caution throwing panic to the wind
    And I just don’t wanna feel this shit again again again

    These never ending nightmares replay deep inside my mind
    Don’t dig in any deeper ‘cause you’ll run from what you find
    Depravity and soulless lust tattooed deep in my skin
    It’s a never ending battle and I’m never gonna win

    So I just keep right on doing it again again again

    ♥♥♥

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    ♥♥♥

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